Thursday, January 22, 2009
Missing euu . .
Its not who euu think kays ? hahahah .
Its bout my dad . I think i shud spill some of it today .
My dad is somewhere safe and sound .
Yet it is a HELL to the residents there .
Its true .
Its a place where euu reflect back euur 'good actions' and realise it .
Its also a place where scares the goooseebumps out of euu .
I think some of euu might get the clue .
But i won't tell .
Sorie .
Lips are sealed .
If not sparing my mum, i would have type it all out by now .
Whhhhuuuuuuuu .
Its hard for me .
Sometymes i try very hard 'extremely' to not think of hym .
But i couldn't .
He's my dad .
My only dad in this werld and in the afterlife .
Its true .
I can't deny the fact .
Eventhough he did mistakes, i would - with all my hart - forgive hym .
Some peeps might think y am i so stupid and naive to forgive my dad so easily ?
Idk .
I mean .
Euu try putting urself in my shoes .
Try standing in the 'middle of an event .
Where evrybody has a dad and euu do not have .
Don't euu feel envy ?
A slightest bit ?
Don't euu feel sad and down when evryone's dads praise them when they score gud marks for results ?
Don't euu feel left out ?
I mean eventhough ur mum is there to give support, euu still feel the empty space .
Its lyke a chair in the middle of ur school hall .
Or maybe a room - for those who r not skuling .
The feeling inside me is trying to crawl out .
Seeking for . .
Idk .
Its just that .
Nvm .
I'm still surprised y i did not cry upon hearing the news from ibu .
Maybe at dat tyme, im trying to act tuff .
Mybe i shud just wake ibu up from her slip in the mid of the nite and cry in her shoulders .
yeah .
But i didnt do that .
I don't want ibu to be crushed any further .
i don't mind bottling up these feelings for the future 7-8 yrs .
If that makes ibu happy .
All i nid from ibu is to see a sincere smile that has twinkles in her eyes and not tears of sadness .
Never ever .
Let It All Out . .
Heyya . Euu mite be wondering what is the above pix about ? nah . no worries . its just old memoirs . Actually its been a long tyme oready that i want to rite about this . But due to lack of tyme ( chey , like business woman gytu ) , this post was kept back . Kay . Since now i have tyme, i shall rite about the pix . Do euu darls remember about this guy named Ben ? Its been a long tyme actually . Nvm if euu nvr remember . I understand . teehee . yeah . its hym . The pix above was given to me but i editted it . For fun sake . Dat tyme, after much silence between us, i felt lyke as if he's a dumbass . sorie . i mean can't euu just tell me what did i do wrong and leave me after dat ? Y silence did u choose ? I noe i have many flaws, so what ? Other peeps have too . Dat was what i've been thinking after dat dae euu chose dat path . Path that tortures me . Eventhough i've known euu for a quite a short period of tyme, i thought euur diff . Guess i was wrong huh ? I shudnt let euu enter my lyfe in the first place . But i was glad actually . Thankful to be exact . Euu noe yy ? Bcoz now i realise that guys are still guys . If they dislike the gal and afraid to break her heart, they will just choose the short-cut way . Ignore sms-es, calls . Is dat what euu've been thinking ? By doing that, i'll not be sad ? Maybe im wrong in all these . Mybe ur intention of ending all of it is diff . Who noes . Okays . Maybe god knows . And for that, i waant to thank quee . Tquee for ending it . Tquee for meeting me . I have learnt a lesson behind all this . From euu, i realise that i can't trust peeps just lyke dat . Esp. GUYS . Hell yeah . My gals are right . Never fall for a guy just lyke dat . Now i noe . Back days, i've been lyke dis . Several tymes . Yet i'm still stubborn . Still believe that each guy is diff . Still believe that there is a guy out there dat is unlike the rest . But now, after being hit on the forehead ( is it ryte ? ) , i suddenly wake up from my 'lalaland' . From dis day onwards, i shall be diff . Not dat big diff . Maybe diff in choosing guys . I shall erase all my beliefs and plant a new one . Shud i do that in order to be happy ? oh wells . Whateva it is, i shant concentrate on it and instead focus my entire attention to werk and school . That will keep me occupy from all this stuffs . Yeah .
Light Off, Please !
Its bout my dad . I think i shud spill some of it today .
My dad is somewhere safe and sound .
Yet it is a HELL to the residents there .
Its true .
Its a place where euu reflect back euur 'good actions' and realise it .
Its also a place where scares the goooseebumps out of euu .
I think some of euu might get the clue .
But i won't tell .
Sorie .
Lips are sealed .
If not sparing my mum, i would have type it all out by now .
Whhhhuuuuuuuu .
Its hard for me .
Sometymes i try very hard 'extremely' to not think of hym .
But i couldn't .
He's my dad .
My only dad in this werld and in the afterlife .
Its true .
I can't deny the fact .
Eventhough he did mistakes, i would - with all my hart - forgive hym .
Some peeps might think y am i so stupid and naive to forgive my dad so easily ?
Idk .
I mean .
Euu try putting urself in my shoes .
Try standing in the 'middle of an event .
Where evrybody has a dad and euu do not have .
Don't euu feel envy ?
A slightest bit ?
Don't euu feel sad and down when evryone's dads praise them when they score gud marks for results ?
Don't euu feel left out ?
I mean eventhough ur mum is there to give support, euu still feel the empty space .
Its lyke a chair in the middle of ur school hall .
Or maybe a room - for those who r not skuling .
The feeling inside me is trying to crawl out .
Seeking for . .
Idk .
Its just that .
Nvm .
I'm still surprised y i did not cry upon hearing the news from ibu .
Maybe at dat tyme, im trying to act tuff .
Mybe i shud just wake ibu up from her slip in the mid of the nite and cry in her shoulders .
yeah .
But i didnt do that .
I don't want ibu to be crushed any further .
i don't mind bottling up these feelings for the future 7-8 yrs .
If that makes ibu happy .
All i nid from ibu is to see a sincere smile that has twinkles in her eyes and not tears of sadness .
Never ever .
Labels: Bottling up .
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Let It All Out . .
Heyya . Euu mite be wondering what is the above pix about ? nah . no worries . its just old memoirs . Actually its been a long tyme oready that i want to rite about this . But due to lack of tyme ( chey , like business woman gytu ) , this post was kept back . Kay . Since now i have tyme, i shall rite about the pix . Do euu darls remember about this guy named Ben ? Its been a long tyme actually . Nvm if euu nvr remember . I understand . teehee . yeah . its hym . The pix above was given to me but i editted it . For fun sake . Dat tyme, after much silence between us, i felt lyke as if he's a dumbass . sorie . i mean can't euu just tell me what did i do wrong and leave me after dat ? Y silence did u choose ? I noe i have many flaws, so what ? Other peeps have too . Dat was what i've been thinking after dat dae euu chose dat path . Path that tortures me . Eventhough i've known euu for a quite a short period of tyme, i thought euur diff . Guess i was wrong huh ? I shudnt let euu enter my lyfe in the first place . But i was glad actually . Thankful to be exact . Euu noe yy ? Bcoz now i realise that guys are still guys . If they dislike the gal and afraid to break her heart, they will just choose the short-cut way . Ignore sms-es, calls . Is dat what euu've been thinking ? By doing that, i'll not be sad ? Maybe im wrong in all these . Mybe ur intention of ending all of it is diff . Who noes . Okays . Maybe god knows . And for that, i waant to thank quee . Tquee for ending it . Tquee for meeting me . I have learnt a lesson behind all this . From euu, i realise that i can't trust peeps just lyke dat . Esp. GUYS . Hell yeah . My gals are right . Never fall for a guy just lyke dat . Now i noe . Back days, i've been lyke dis . Several tymes . Yet i'm still stubborn . Still believe that each guy is diff . Still believe that there is a guy out there dat is unlike the rest . But now, after being hit on the forehead ( is it ryte ? ) , i suddenly wake up from my 'lalaland' . From dis day onwards, i shall be diff . Not dat big diff . Maybe diff in choosing guys . I shall erase all my beliefs and plant a new one . Shud i do that in order to be happy ? oh wells . Whateva it is, i shant concentrate on it and instead focus my entire attention to werk and school . That will keep me occupy from all this stuffs . Yeah .Labels: A Big TQuee
Friday, January 16, 2009
Light Off, Please !
Werk was so tiring . Hahahahah . Even Jannah had to massage her legs after a day at werk . Cute sey . Hmm . Let's talk more about werk shall we ? So far, Sofia, Bakar, Kae Siong, Shermain and Elicia - sorie if i spell wrongly saw me and Jannah werking . Sheeshh . Embarrassing . The first day at werk, i was assigned by kak Shar to do runner . Runner as in i have to take all the orders - drinks, foods . I was paired up wif an aunty, which seems to be my fav . Although she's a bit naggy and stuffs but she still don't flare up at me . Hahahahha . I'm her 'baby' for the day wadd . Jannah was YC's baby . Lols . There's a lot of managers there . All wearing red and blue tops . Friendly, i must sae . And they are very gud in handling fussy customers . Oh well . Their jobs . Oh yea, got to noe a senior from Siglap sec - batch 2 yrs above me . He'a a Floor Manager there . Kay lar . Over frenly . hahah . i'll tell euu bout it l8r .
Few days past and i am a bit confident wif the cashering stuffs . Jannah is my runner . At one point in time, Jannah asked the manager : I must run her arh ?
Lawl . Make me run k Jannah ? heheheh . Yesterdae, Mak Jannah saw us werking . Malu nyer muke . Beh, my 2 aunts oso caught me off guard by queuing at my counter . Terperanjat gak .
There's a few new crews coming in yesterdae . Mens - MALAY . One is a fren of Hidayah and another one . Urm .. I think mcm abg to pakcik gytu . Beh siap pakai jade nyer necklace lak . I mean . I don't wish to judge the man from hys looks but the way he approached us seemed weird and creepy . Can ask Jannah bout dat .
Since we - me and Jannah werk 5days per week, we r given another set of uni . The tops which are supposed to be S , are M instead . The manager said don't have . Kay . nvm bout dat . One of the pants was XL, so Jannah went to the manager to change it to M . hahaha . Naseb aek ader . While waiting for our drinks from McCafe, the manager called me . He said that he had a piece of top sized S . Only one . Then he told me to give the top to Jannah instead . N u noe why ? He said that i can grow more fatter ! Wt . hahahahhah . Beh, another manager whose busy counting the cash oso added in . He noes dat i will grow more fatter, wif the food of Mcdy . Haiz . Loss of werds . Nvm, peeps . Feezah will show euu that she will slim down . But when eh ? heheheh . Kay lar . Tomorow meeting Aini .
Lastly, i'll be werking my feets off from 25-27 Jan . So, pardon me if i cn't update muchhie kay ? Saw a poster at my wrkplace saying that Mcdy is hiring new crews . So, if any1 interested to werk, do drop by at Mcdy - opp CPF building ( Tamp ) .
Below are 2 peeps from Korea which seems to catch my attention .
Lee Min Ho and followed up by Kim Bum .
P/S I seemed to get over euu . So yeah . Thank god !
OmiGosh .
I just love this guy; Rezky Aditya . For those who might noe know hym, he is an actor from Indonesia . He's quite famous actually but oh well . This drama that he acted ( not Suci ) which is ' Melati utk Marvel ' . hahahhah . The character is quite goofy, easy going guy . Teeqa, y not let me be the 1st one - fan . Followed up by euu . Can ?
Oh yea . Reality check . 4 hrs more to O level results release . AHHhhhhh . Can't tahan anymore . For those who are experiencing these, euu guys noe it too . Torture lar sey . Tsk tsk . okies . gtg . Stomach is churningg up . I think i ate too much cili jeruk yesterdae . haiz . bubbye darls . Will update euu bout my results . MWAHHHHHHH .
Bulanhaeyo 불안해요
Few days past and i am a bit confident wif the cashering stuffs . Jannah is my runner . At one point in time, Jannah asked the manager : I must run her arh ?
Lawl . Make me run k Jannah ? heheheh . Yesterdae, Mak Jannah saw us werking . Malu nyer muke . Beh, my 2 aunts oso caught me off guard by queuing at my counter . Terperanjat gak .
There's a few new crews coming in yesterdae . Mens - MALAY . One is a fren of Hidayah and another one . Urm .. I think mcm abg to pakcik gytu . Beh siap pakai jade nyer necklace lak . I mean . I don't wish to judge the man from hys looks but the way he approached us seemed weird and creepy . Can ask Jannah bout dat .
Since we - me and Jannah werk 5days per week, we r given another set of uni . The tops which are supposed to be S , are M instead . The manager said don't have . Kay . nvm bout dat . One of the pants was XL, so Jannah went to the manager to change it to M . hahaha . Naseb aek ader . While waiting for our drinks from McCafe, the manager called me . He said that he had a piece of top sized S . Only one . Then he told me to give the top to Jannah instead . N u noe why ? He said that i can grow more fatter ! Wt . hahahahhah . Beh, another manager whose busy counting the cash oso added in . He noes dat i will grow more fatter, wif the food of Mcdy . Haiz . Loss of werds . Nvm, peeps . Feezah will show euu that she will slim down . But when eh ? heheheh . Kay lar . Tomorow meeting Aini .
Lastly, i'll be werking my feets off from 25-27 Jan . So, pardon me if i cn't update muchhie kay ? Saw a poster at my wrkplace saying that Mcdy is hiring new crews . So, if any1 interested to werk, do drop by at Mcdy - opp CPF building ( Tamp ) .
Below are 2 peeps from Korea which seems to catch my attention .
Lee Min Ho and followed up by Kim Bum .
P/S I seemed to get over euu . So yeah . Thank god !
Labels: WERK .
Monday, January 12, 2009
OmiGosh .
I just love this guy; Rezky Aditya . For those who might noe know hym, he is an actor from Indonesia . He's quite famous actually but oh well . This drama that he acted ( not Suci ) which is ' Melati utk Marvel ' . hahahhah . The character is quite goofy, easy going guy . Teeqa, y not let me be the 1st one - fan . Followed up by euu . Can ?Oh yea . Reality check . 4 hrs more to O level results release . AHHhhhhh . Can't tahan anymore . For those who are experiencing these, euu guys noe it too . Torture lar sey . Tsk tsk . okies . gtg . Stomach is churningg up . I think i ate too much cili jeruk yesterdae . haiz . bubbye darls . Will update euu bout my results . MWAHHHHHHH .
Labels: Pacar guee .
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Bulanhaeyo 불안해요
ahn-nyong-ha-se-yo .
heheheh . u darls may be thinking that fizah is out of her mind !
sorie . i'm just in the K-Mood . K stands for Korean . Just watched Hana Yori Dango KOREAN VERSION . OMG ! Hyun Joong is acting . wooohooo . For those who don't know whose HJ, he's a singer of SS501 . His voice is soooooo nice and soothing .
Next . Let's talk about another singer whose voice, i must say, is much nicer than HJ oppa .
This is a pik of Alex oppa and Shinae unni . Actually they are matched up together for an artificial wedding . yeah . Alex is the singer that has a soothing voice . And also, by the way he sing, it can touch ur heart . Honestly .
Others are Kim Bum Soo who sang BOGOSHIPDA, Kim Dong Ryul who sang Like A Child, Hwanhee, Rain, Andy, Kangin and many more . hehehehhe .
Are u guys still wondering what does the title, Bulanhaeyo means ? It means scared . Actually, the news hav spread all over the islandwide . O level results is gonna be release on this COMING MONDAY ! ! Aaaarrrghhhhhh ! I noe i've did my bez but u juz tend to have this pressure in ur mind - family . Euu noe what i mean . Pray and hope that i'll attain gud results . Please, Allah ! Hamba-mu pasrah dgn segalanya yang kau beri . Amin .
Like A Child - Kim Dong Ryul Ft Alex Oppa <33
InsideOut .
heheheh . u darls may be thinking that fizah is out of her mind !
sorie . i'm just in the K-Mood . K stands for Korean . Just watched Hana Yori Dango KOREAN VERSION . OMG ! Hyun Joong is acting . wooohooo . For those who don't know whose HJ, he's a singer of SS501 . His voice is soooooo nice and soothing .
Next . Let's talk about another singer whose voice, i must say, is much nicer than HJ oppa .
This is a pik of Alex oppa and Shinae unni . Actually they are matched up together for an artificial wedding . yeah . Alex is the singer that has a soothing voice . And also, by the way he sing, it can touch ur heart . Honestly .
Others are Kim Bum Soo who sang BOGOSHIPDA, Kim Dong Ryul who sang Like A Child, Hwanhee, Rain, Andy, Kangin and many more . hehehehhe .
Are u guys still wondering what does the title, Bulanhaeyo means ? It means scared . Actually, the news hav spread all over the islandwide . O level results is gonna be release on this COMING MONDAY ! ! Aaaarrrghhhhhh ! I noe i've did my bez but u juz tend to have this pressure in ur mind - family . Euu noe what i mean . Pray and hope that i'll attain gud results . Please, Allah ! Hamba-mu pasrah dgn segalanya yang kau beri . Amin .
Like A Child - Kim Dong Ryul Ft Alex Oppa <33
Monday, January 05, 2009
InsideOut .
I noe euu darls are thinking y is fizah so lazy to update her blog ? hahhaha . sorie . its juz dat i dont what to type out . The pictures that were taken at my aunt's bbq are all be glued together in a slide . So yeah . Takes tyme .
Right now, i dont noe whether to cry or to sigh with relieve . Honestly . I dont think i shud explain in details what happened here . But its juz . EuuNoeiKnow . So sorrie darls . Its too personal . For what i noe, i'll have to wait for 7-8 yrs for it to be released .
To Luis, sorrie for not chatting wif euu in msn . This thing was in my mind juz nw . So sorrie . Gud luck for ur orientation !
To the rez of my hunnykins, will try to fasten up the slide thingyy and post it up here for euu guys .
Oh yea . Me and Jannah got a job . lets not touch on dat shall we ? hahahhahahah .
Right now, i dont noe whether to cry or to sigh with relieve . Honestly . I dont think i shud explain in details what happened here . But its juz . EuuNoeiKnow . So sorrie darls . Its too personal . For what i noe, i'll have to wait for 7-8 yrs for it to be released .
To Luis, sorrie for not chatting wif euu in msn . This thing was in my mind juz nw . So sorrie . Gud luck for ur orientation !
To the rez of my hunnykins, will try to fasten up the slide thingyy and post it up here for euu guys .
Oh yea . Me and Jannah got a job . lets not touch on dat shall we ? hahahhahahah .
